Camping this weekend.

So this weekend, my friends and I are camping. So I won't be around after tonight. I feel like it is close enough to the end of the month that I can skip days on my blogging. Not sure if anyone is reading anyway. I really need to work on my new fic tonight so I feel like I have accomplished SOMETHING fic wise this week.

HOPE EVERYONE HAS A WONDERFUL WEEKEND!!

I'm too emo

This week has been a roller coaster of feelings. I am constantly up and down. I listened to a song today that we played at my mom's funeral.


 The Perfect Fan lyrics

It takes a lot to know what is love
It's not the big thing but the little things
That can mean enough
A lot of players to get me through
There is never a day that passes by
I don't think of you
You were always there for me
Pushing me and guiding me
Always to succeed

You showed me
When i was young just how to grow
You showed me everything that i should know
You showed me just how to walk without your hands
'Cause mom you always were the perfect fan

God has been so good
With blessing me with the family
Who did all they could
And I've had many years of Grace
And it flatters me when i see a smile on your face
I wanna thank you for what you've done
In hopes I can give back to you
And be the perfect son

You showed me
When i was young just how to grow
You showed me everything that i should know
You showed me just how to walk without your hands
'Cause mom you always were the perfect fan

You showed me how to love
You showed me how to care
And showed me that you would always be there
I wanna thank you for the time
And i'm proud to say you're mine

You showed me
When i was young just how to grow
You showed me everything that i should know
You showed me just how to walk without your hands
'Cause mom you always were the perfect fan

'Cause Mom you always were, Mom you always were
Mom you always were...the perfect fan

I Love You Mom

Blog #2 today!!

I really want to motivate myself to make the changes I need to in my life. I still feel in a complete rut. But now that the new TV season has started. I feel I will never get anything done. Tuesday nights are going to be crazy. Glee, One Tree Hill, and NCIS all come on at 7, and I don't have DVR. I guess I will be watching NCIS episodes on line. I need to get all my shows form last season in my queue at Netflix. I am such a TV junkie. I need to go make my nightly show list.

Later peeps!!
<3 ME

Let's talk reviews!!

So I forgot to blog yesterday. I will be catching up with 2 today.

No to my topic--REVIEWS!!

All writers love them. They motivate you and let you know what your reader is thinking. I have never gotten a whole lot of reviews, but it has been steady enough. Lately I have felt really down about everything. I'm not sure if I am getting my point across. This is mainly because I don't get enough reviews. My new chapter has two reviews that say "Poor Bella" and "Good" Not that is encouraging. Even my Instant Star fic doesn't get reviews like it used to. I feel I have lost too many readers a long the way. I guess I will just keep writing for me and posting and just see how it turns out.

That's all for now. Later!!

It's Sunday

So, last night was a night out with my friends. I had a blast, but when I got home was when I start feeling the lonelies. All my friends are married and they have someone to go home with. And I usual I just go home alone. Maybe I am picky, but I just wish I could find that guy that just everything clicks with. Maybe I read too much fanfiction.

It's Sunday and I plan on getting some laundry done, read some Harry Potter, and might even start the movies while I read.

Happy Saturday!!

I have done nothing but be lazy all day! I have so much to do, but just didn't feel like doing anything. I'll just work on it tomorrow. I am trying my best to have a stressless weekend.

my family

What a week. So glad it is finally Friday!!

This is my family blog. You all know I lost my mom several years ago and you know about my two wonderful nieces.

On to the rest of my family. The relationship with my dad is really interesting. He and I are a lot alike so we fight a lot. But help each other out when we can. He does the best he can, I know, but I wish he would try just a little bit more. My mom always called him a bear because he's a bit on the grumpy side. It only gets worse with age. But I love him; he's my daddy.

Then there is my brother. He is 4 and a half years older than me and his family live near Memphis. I actually don't get to see them often because it's hard to drop everything and go to their house. they don't come here at all. I'm really not sure what he's deal is, but it's been nearly two years since he's ever been in my dad's house. He's very complicated. I'm never sure if he is ashamed of where he came from or it is too hard for him to be there.

Now there is my sister in law. When they got together, I imagined she and I would have a great relationship and be like best friends. DIDN'T HAPPEN!! She's great and I love her; we just never formed the great friendship I wanted with her.

So that's my family. I wish we all were closer, but with out my mom around, relationships fall through the cracks.

HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYONE <3